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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 17:30:34 GMT

My new song

No Way Out By: Mark John Negrelli IV

We sat upon the bed,

We said the things we said

And I could not believe you seem so much like me

We exchanged our poetry,

I'll guess that we could talk about anything

Then I asked have you ever felt abandoned?

Felt so lost that you were stranded,

Just like all the walls are closing in

And you were left inside

Have you ever felt like your days were numbered?

Stuck under a tree in thunder

And there is no way out!

Ready for another day

Slowly watch me waste away,

Having' fun, bein' cool

Like we did in high school,

Elementary romance feelin' nervous all the time,

Crack a smile hold it up,

Just don’t let it hit the ground,

Sex, Drugs, livin’ life,

All the things we learned not to do,

Typical teenage machines,

Anyone tell me what this means?

I could learn, I could try,

Never really had an alibi

Wish I did, that's no lie

Everybody's asking

[Chorus]

Why?

When you feel like you can fly

You gotta know I don’t have the answer for you,

Drives me crazy but it's not over

There’s so much more to life then this

Why?

When you feel like you can fly

You gotta know I don’t have the answer for you,

Drives me crazy but it's not over

There’s so much more to life then this

Things seem so hallucinary,

In the corners of my mind they scare me,

I just want to run away,

Won’t someone please help me?

Then I ask have you ever felt abandoned?

Felt so lost that you were stranded,

Just like all the walls are closing in

And you were left inside

Have you ever felt like your days were numbered?

Stuck under a tree in thunder

And there is no way out

And you ask

[Chorus]

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Tue, 16 May 2006 22:12:26 GMT

Ok on May 7th my birthday I went to a concert, I saw someone who has helped me more then she will ever know and I'm pretty sure with out her I would not be doing so hot but she helped me see that the path I was on would of screwed my life up. you know who you are and I just want to say thank you. I dont know what it is about you but what I do know is your amazing god has truly touched you and and I'm so glad that we met.

God gives us many choices some good and some bad and let me tell you I have made my share of bad chocies but the good thing is that God already knew that I would fall down and sure he dosent like it but he still picked me back up time and time again. I know what it feels like to loose control and think like there is nothing to look forward to but I found that God gives us things to look forward to. God came down and walked beside me last friday after i left the bar after a night of DJ'ing (no drinks). I was tired and I wanted to give up I had been up since 7am and here it is 2:30 and im walking home with about 800 cds for a 5 mile walk. he asked me a question he asked me if I liked the path I'm on and I broke down and said God I hate the path im on and he reminded me what it was like to be loved. so now I ask him what can I do to get back on track God he told me to live my life through him and go the places he shows me. almost every day I am around drugs and/or alcohol and its hard to say know but I found out that I can say no they look at me funny when there offering free drugs but thats not what God wants. Life for me the last few months has sucked, I live in a basement that has no bathroom. I dont have easy access to a laundramat or a kitchen to cook in but I have made do with what I have. in the last 6 months I have had 5 jobs I still have 1 and that DJ'ing. I've been through 2 cars in 6 months. my Saturn's engine block blew up because I didnt change the oil enough. My S10 is fixable but I dont have the money the upper ball joint broke. my bank closed my account because I Owe 75 dollars. and my cell was turned off because I owe about 300. but I'm starting to re-pay those debts and im gonna put them behind me so that I can start again fresh and renewed in the spirit. I wanna get dirty being Jesus's hands and feet and I'm gonna do it 100%

Monday, March 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 03:39:25 GMT

Winter Jam was great. call me i cant get online often.

Monday, February 06, 2006

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 17:18:29 GMT

well its been a minute but im doing ok i live in twinsburg with my buddy Josh Spade hes related to David Spade my new number is 330-348-1044 please call me

Monday, November 14, 2005

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 05:24:27 GMT

O.k. I'm back in Ohio here is why. Anna was doing something that was life threatening I told her I would do anything to help her and I wouldnt tell her parents if she let me help her. she told me she needed to fight her own battles. I had no choice but to tell her father what was going on. he blamed me for everything he said that ever since I came to town Anna was lying and doing all kinds of other things but it wasn't my fault. he told me that he wanted me to have little to no contact with his family for a long time. I don't know anyone there so I was S.O.L. so I came home very much still in love with Anna even though she is pissed at me. one day she will realize that I really did tell her dad out of love not to hurt her. Savannah I will always love you please lets work this out and stay close untill you are 18 then we can be together again.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 06:35:55 GMT

Howdy Yall!

just kidding I'm not a Texan yet but I will be soon enough. well today I went to work with Savannah's father at the League City Voulenteer EMT we had a pretty bad motorcycle accident involveing a lot of alcohol I'm pretty sure the one lady didn't make it I was on sceen helping and she was alive but barley when they took her away on life flight. tomarrow I go to church in Pasadena to Kristens uncles church. Monday at about 11CT thats 12EST ohio I have my interview at Taco Bell prayers would be much abliged. my bus ride was cool untill I got to Dallas and some crazy lady was poping vicadin every 5 minutes I can't belive she didn't need to be recesitated but whatever. I love you all in Ohio, but I love my girl alittle bit more I dont care that she is 15 im in love and she is 2 thats why we are engaged. well I'm tired I need some sleep before church in the morning ttyl

Mark

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 16:31:30 GMT

This is NOT A Post it is an english paper

In William Shakespeare's "Othello", the character Iago is, at least in my point of view, the main and most interesting character. Iago is in virtually every scene in the play, and has his hands in almost all doings within the play. Iago is truly one of the greatest villans in literature.

Iago is viewed by all in the play, with the possible exception of his wife, as an honest and trust worthy man, which could not be farther from the truth. Iago plays all the characters in the play like puppets. He plays Cassio into a confession of his dealings with Bianca to make it look like he is speaking about Desdamona, and into planting the handkerchief onto Cassio without making himself look suspicious. Iago also plays Roderigo into giving him money and leaving the picture so Iago can do his work.

Possibly the best work Iago does is on his boss, Othello. Iago plays Othello perfectly. He plays on every man's weakness, jealousy. Othello takes every word Iago says like it is truth, and whenever he does question Iago, Iago's quick wits keep him uncovered by weaving all his lies together. Iago was capable of bringing Othello into killing his own wife without ever have Othello question his wife or anyone else. In Othello's mind, Iago was so trust worthy that anyone elses word would not be truth, and all of Othello's faith was placed in Iago. Iago calls himself trust worthy in Act II Scene I, Iago is quoted saying "As honest as I am", which everyone knows is far from true, but Iago is still capable of bringing Othello. Othello believes in the honesty of Iago untill the bitter end of the play. Othello and Iago's wife, Emilia, argue in Act III Scene II. Othello says:
"…Ask thy husband else. O, I were damned beneath all depths in hell but that I did proceed upon just grounds to this extremity."

It is ironic that Othello damns himself here, because a few lines later, Emilia blames Iago for Desdamonas death by saying:
"If he say so[Desdamona cheating on Othello] may his pernicious soul rot half a grain a day! He lies to th' heart."

Emilia blames Iago for all that has been done to Othello and Desdamona. Emilia is the only one who knows that Iago is to blame. When she reveals Iago to Othello, Othello sends for Iago along with Cassio, Gratiano, Montano, and Lodovico. When Iago learns he has been discovered, he turns to real cowardness and stabs his own wife, commiting the same sin as Othello. Othello does not kill Iago, he says that Iago is the devil, and the devil cannot be killed. One must wonder why Othello does not kill Iago in a fit of rage, but he must be commended for his action. Othello then kills himself and proceeds to die next to Desdamona and Emilia. Iago is left as a prisoner of Cassio, to live with what he did. This story is the story not of Othello, but rather the story of Iago and how he plays the other characters, which is the reason Iago is one of literatures greatest villans.

Friday, October 21, 2005

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 20:52:39 GMT

Well I guess i'm pushing back the move for another week or two but its ok because I need to let Anna's parents accept the truth and then mabey I can stay with them but or now I'm in the State of Ohio and I feel like I'm trapped in a world of hate and I cant stand it anymore I need to get out of this place even if its the last thing I ever do. Savannah I love you once we are together we will be on top of the world.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 04:46:39 GMT

Well it is official I just got home from picking up my ticket at Greyhound for the 27th of this month I got a new tattoo there are pictures on www.myspace.com/markjohnnegrelli4 if you care. I can't wait till October 28th at 9:35 PM when I am finally with Savannah the girl I have been waiting for all my life! I love you Anna

Friday, October 07, 2005

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 05:03:34 GMT

what can i say i got arrested today no charge but i do have GTA on my record